Monday, April 22, 2019

thoughts of the small stuff

shared by Marlo R. Beall, her sister

Sometimes April is a little more bittersweet than other months, since it's the month of Cindy's Heaven Anniversary. Time also just seems to fly by faster every year, and I'm sad to say that it's become harder to recall new memories of Cindy, that haven't already been shared.

However, I remember her and think of her everyday. It's the daily, random, sometimes so minor, reminders that keep Cindy's memory alive. The girls play a big role in providing regular reminders of Cindy.

This month, those small reminders included...

... baking blondies, for guests, for a potluck, and just for fun

... Cyn Cyn helping Ava put together an outfit, hairstyle and make-up look for a "Rock Star" birthday party she attended

... belting out Broadway songs both in the car and around the house

... watching A's baseball

... Ava holding and comforting Fiona at a recent visit to the vet

... watching the youngest family members enjoy an Easter Egg Hunt in the backyard

... shopping for spring clothes at Old Navy

... Cyn Cyn working on friendship bracelets

... Ava taking a bath, using the "bath bombs" that she and a friend had made

... watching Friends reruns

I cherish all the memories I have of Cindy, and am so grateful to have reasons and instances that remind me of her everyday.

Tuesday, April 2, 2019

thoughts of celebration and remembrance

shared by Marlo R. Beall, her sister

Today is Cindy's heaven anniversary, which is always a bittersweet day for our family. It's been 16 years since Cindy went to heaven, and we miss her every day.

My Dad and I attended mass at the Cathedral in Oakland; one of our aunts had offered the mass in Cindy's memory. It was a lovely mass, with a kind and caring priest celebrating, who also happened to pronounce our family's last name correctly during the mass intentions.

After mass, I lit a candle, and knelt for a few minutes in one of the little prayer alcoves on the side of the church. As I looked down, I saw an image on the decorated wall that looked like an intertwined "C" and "R". Although I don't know the religious significance of the image, it undoubtedly made me think of Cindy.



Later in the afternoon, we went to the cemetery, and Fiona tagged along for the first time. As I was driving home, I had a random thought, which connected back to the "C and R". It may sound a little cheesy, but the words "celebration and remembrance" came to mind. And celebrating Cindy's life and always remembering her is what I'll keep doing every day.